I've been back at work for a couple of months now and seem to have finally adjusted to the change in our family routine. This morning when I was dropping Jack off at his care provider another family was taking a tour of the facility and meeting the staff, not so unsual but the expression of unknown and raw emotion of the mother is what has stuck with me all day.
Back in September the thought of having someone else care for Jack was so overwhelming for me it took me days to get the strength to call around just to make appointments. The actual process of going to these appointments was something else. I cried before going to each appointment. I cried after each appointment in the car. I could hardley speak to anyone about the transition from maternity leave to going back to work without needing a kleenex.
Today I saw the same unknown fear in the woman who was touring the facility that I had a few months ago. I also have an idea of how hard the rest of her day is going to be. I am sure she will hold her son a little closer, a little longer and cry a few silent tears while she soaks him in wishing for more time.
Today I am feeling relieved that I have made it through the transition from The Maternity to Work chapter of parenting and am feeling rather proud of myself.
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